When I fell head over heels for a guy, I used to feel so protective over him.
He’smine.
No one can have his time.
No one can have his attention.
No one can have him.
Example: Foss homecoming 2008.
Andy and I went to homecoming separately, but we were together. L. I knew that no matter what the situation would end horribly, and boy was I right.
Andy danced with Sarah, I danced with randoms. All was well during the dance, but every moment after just went downhill. That night was the foundation of the trust issues we had with one another. “Well, we were dating but you still wanted to dance with him/her…”
Example: Heather Lee
Young told me that hehatedthis girl. She broke his heart and there was no reason to ever talk to her again. Yet 6 months into our relationship, I caught him chatting with her after her boyfriend broke up with her.
Young: “I am soo happy that you’re talking to me now.”
Heather:”I’m happy that we’re talking too babo.”
Young: “I miss you and your mom and your brother so much.”
Those three lines alone killed me. Wow. I was so in shock.
Now? Everything is different.
Deep down, I feel nothing.
I feel like once your get your heart completely broken, shattered, fucked up… you immediately mold your heart into a rock. From then on, nothing will affect you. You don’t want feel any emotions. No infatuation, no love, no jealousy. At first, you believe to think that it sucks. You can’t feel anything wonderful about life. Me? I love this feeling.
You opened up a new definition for “hurt” to me. Engaging in a relationship may feel amazing, but if I have to take the risk of getting hurt again, I’d rather just stay single for the rest of my life.
